An Observation

I just finished reading High Fidelity today. A great read. It actually kind of hit home, with some of the points that Nick Hornby makes about relationships.

Anyways, there is a point made near the end of it that the main protagonist, Rob Flemming, makes about how men view love. It states, "...It's much harder to get used to the idea that my little-boy notion of romance, of negliges and candlelit dinners at home and long, smoldering glances, had no basis in reaity at all. That's what women ought to get all steamed up about; that's why we can't function properly in a relationship. It's not the cellulite or the crow's feet. It's the ...the...the disrespect."

He also mentions the level of abasement that men expect from women and how the old movie "looks", the ones that Ursula Andress gave to Sean Connery, the ones that Doris Day gave to Rock Hudson(you know, those movie looks), are false hopes we as men have.

Stopping to think about this, I realize the point of pragmatism that has to be in a relationship yet there is this hopelessness in this thought process that bothers me. Maybe it's the idealist in me but I think true romance is still alive. And by romance I mean that "look." That point of enchantment where everything is right.

In the past week, I got to see those precious moments at work. Seeing wives of terminally ill patients, seeing utter hope in their faces, and seeing that look of love in their faces, makes me believe that their love toward their spouse is one that film, movies, pictures, could never capture. It's those looks that makes me believe their is more. That love is as prevalent today as ever before. And I get to see a little bit of what God's love is like.

I can't come close to what these moments are really like. You can only see them. Not really describe them.

I love my sister.

Interview Questions from The Lindsay

1. if you had a speed dial for 'drunk calls' who would be the top three peeps you find yourself drunk dialing? why?

1. Linda(because she will laugh at anything I say)
2. Darren(because most likely he is also partaking in the drink)
3. Jesse(because I want to wake him up and make him very angry)

2. if you could create your own country, what would the name of it be? describe your country's flag. what would be your main exports? the primary language?

"Shiney" is a small jignostic republic just under the tropic of cancer in the pacific ocean. The flag is a picture of a gleeming rock. Our main export is meat(all kinds). And our primary language is a mix between spanish and english. Much like the language spoken in East LA.

3. Would you rather be a gnome, a troll, or a tree nimph? Describe why.

What? I guess a gnome. They get to have beards, they make stuff, and it seems to me that they are fairly hygenic creatures. At least more so than trolls. And tree nymphs seem too feminine. If I'm going to be some mythical creature I rather not be a puff.

4. What would you like to be your final words?

Wow. That's one hell of a question. Most likely, it will probably be, "I wish I could do more."

5. If you could be a celebrity stalker, which celebrity would you choose to stalk? why?

I'm not really one who cares for celebrities, but I will have to say Natalie Portman because she is carrying my child.

I don't know what happened to my blog. A bunch of stuff got erased. I will try to fix. Damn it.

Ten movies you’d watch over and over:
10 The Jerk
09 The Bad News Bears
08 Time Bandits
07 The aAventures of Baron Munchiosin
06 The Outsiders
05 The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly
04 Rio Bravo
03 The Dirty Dozen
02 Weird Science
01 The Blues Brothers

Nine people you enjoy the company of:
09 Jayson
08 Darren and Trevor
07 Jesse
06 Andy and Drew
05 Matt B
04 Matt O
03 Keith
02 Miller
01 Dan and Billy

Eight things you’re wearing:
08 Blue jeans
07 white t-shirt
06 boxers
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02
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Seven things on your mind:
07 my new apartment
06 a girl
05 my job
04 another girl
03 my friends
02 my future
01 yet another girl

Six objects you touch every day:
06 soap
05 my bed
04 Darren
03 Darren's cloths
02 Latex gloves
01 Bacon

Five things you do everyday:
05 Drink coffee
04 Eat
03 Write
02 Drive my car
01 Listen to Rock Roll music

Four bands or musical artists that you couldn’t live without:
04 Johnny Cash
03 Bob Dylan
02 Wilco
01 The Clash

Three of your favorite songs of the moment:
03 My Mind is Playing Tricks on Me- Ghetto Boys
02 Rise - Arcade Fire
01 I Guess Things Happen That Way - Johnny Cash

Two people who have influenced your life the most:
02 Me Mum
01 Me Dad

One person who has been nice to you today:
01 An old lady thanked me for helping her son.

I know i know. Yes internet I miss you too. I've been away for awhile. And visiting you is going to be tough for a little bit longer, but I promise you, I promise, I will seeing regularly again soon. But for know, I will try as hard as I can meet with you, every chance I can.

I'm finally starting to move stuff into the new digs in LA. I'm still waiting on my application to go through, paper work and stuff, but I might as well get ahead in the game.

Work is good but it was a hard week. I had a night filled with ODs on Friday-Saturday morning, which is personally one of the hardest things for me to see other than suicides. They all look like souless creatures, void of anything human. And more often than not, there are always friends/family present in so much pain. And you soak up everything, and try to take away the cause of the pain, to move it away so that you may initiate some healing. I play the roll of the grief mop.
I really don't know how to handle all this yet. My coworkers make themselves totally removed from patients, at least mentally and spiritually. I can't do this. So for the time being I'll try to figure out the right thing to do.

Hopefully the next time I see you internet, I'll be moved in to my new place and on more of a consistant routine to visit and catch up.

I think I really really like you. A lot.

I'm moving all my stuff out of the Bayou as I write.

Sadness.

Many good times had.

Along with a few bad ones. (but I've forgotten about those already)

Moving on.

I will be in Los Angeles proper very shortly.