It's been some month.

Bullfight.

Trying to find a new place to move to.

Finding it.

DMH bachelor party and wedding.

The sadness of seeing friends move.

Moving.

Dating/not dating

I got a bitter/sweet taste in my mouth. More bitter than sweet. I loved the times of hanging out with friends, seeing them wed, and going off to great things, but I'm a selfish selfish man. I think about what I have lost. I miss them terribly already.

I also had to end a dating relationship for solely pragmatic reasons. Which fucking sucks. I start dating an awesome girl, but for reasons you can email/call me about, I had to break it off because I would have made her worse.

There are two things I require in my future mate.
1. Christian
2. She has to make me a better man.

This girl would have fit both of these requirements. But I'm afraid I wouldn't have done it for her. Fuck.

As it is, I'm an asshole. Torn between my mind and my heart.

Other than that, my new place is nice. The room is pretty much set up. Listening to Bonnie 'Prince' Billy right now.

And if you scroll down to the word "pol" for polish on this page, you will learn what my last name means.

Crazy thing happened today.

The house that I'm going to move into starting tomorrow, got broken into today.

What?

The bachelor party was great.

Beach Baseball. Meat. Beer. Friends.

The White House is a ghost town. Now it's time to pack and move this week.

Rehearsal dinner on Friday.

Then the wedding on Saturday.

I need to dry clean my suit. Today.

July is crazy.

It hit me on Monday.

The Change.

Friends leaving.

Bitter sweet.

It's been too long and so much has happened.

Brief rundown...

Hamiltons came to visit
Retreat
Bull Fight
Hollywood Bowl
Found out I needed to move out of my house...
And then found a new house.

And tomorrow starts the dmh bachelor party extravaganza.

And next weekend is the wedding.

And I'm trying to pack.

And I'm trying to go out with some girl.

I'm a little overwhelmed, a little confused, a little scared, and a little excited.

But I here a lot people are going through those same feelings. At least I'm not getting married or having a kid.

Wait...

No

Those are good things. The world tells me these things are burdens but they are of great joy.

Anyways...

Everything is changing. And it's good.

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