I feel wronged. I know I did everything that I could have possibly done in my relationship with Kristin to make things work. To show her how much I love her and care for her. I wonder if I was in her situation and she was in mine would she would do the same as I did for her? Was I fooled? Was I blind to what was really going on? Was I taken advantage of? And what do I do now? Do I continue to love her as before? Should I wait? There is a battle in me fighting for what would be right and good and for what God wants me to do. She said that God revealed to her that we are not suppose to be together. Why didn't He tell me this? In fact, I felt God told me the exact opposite. I cannot reconcile this in my head or my heart.

So do I protect my heart or risk it being tortured some more? I've been told a lot of different things and I don't know who to believe. I almost wish that she cheated on me or found someone else or any number of other reasons that could have happened. At least I could deal with that.

She still has my heart. And I don't want it back.