I need to update this thing more often.

Work has been pretty hectic lately. The high stress and low are ruthless conbination that have caused me to look for work elsewhere. I love the job, don't me wrong. I love being in an emergency situation and helping out. But the politics of my company are really getting old. And making $8.75 sucks. Right now I'm looking into the American Red Cross for employment. They're in the business of helping people which is the business I want to be in. Anyways, I was only planning on being an EMT for 6 months anyways. I just need some more money before nursing school.

I'm off to Austin on Thursday for Alan and Xio's wedding. I'm really excited. Never have been to Texas. Hopefully I'll take some pictures and post them on here.

I'm doing AIDS walk LA on October 16. If you want to contribute click here.

I'm really bad at getting in touch with people. I never call friends. They always call me. Unless I'm drunk than I'll call everyone in phone book. But there are these sober times in which I think I should call some people soon. To see how they are, have some bullshit small talk and let me in on the happenings of themselves and people around them. But I never do. Thank God that there have been a recent slew of bachelor partys/weddings/birthday partys or I wouldn't see anyone out of my roommates. I really don't know why I'm like this because I don't want to be. I want to friendly, like a Gloyd/Patterson/Sager/dmh type of friendly. Even at church, I want to be involved and hang out with good like minded believers yet as soon as service is done I leave as fast as I can.

I remember that I went through this anti-social funk before but I forgot how I got out of it. I remember I met a girl who actually helped me feel joy again but she also exposed a part of me that was sick.

I don't want that again.

Regardless, I need to call some people up this weekend and start being friendly.