I'm really bad at getting in touch with people. I never call friends. They always call me. Unless I'm drunk than I'll call everyone in phone book. But there are these sober times in which I think I should call some people soon. To see how they are, have some bullshit small talk and let me in on the happenings of themselves and people around them. But I never do. Thank God that there have been a recent slew of bachelor partys/weddings/birthday partys or I wouldn't see anyone out of my roommates. I really don't know why I'm like this because I don't want to be. I want to friendly, like a Gloyd/Patterson/Sager/dmh type of friendly. Even at church, I want to be involved and hang out with good like minded believers yet as soon as service is done I leave as fast as I can.

I remember that I went through this anti-social funk before but I forgot how I got out of it. I remember I met a girl who actually helped me feel joy again but she also exposed a part of me that was sick.

I don't want that again.

Regardless, I need to call some people up this weekend and start being friendly.